Moving on.
So - a personal blog isn't really my thing anymore. Read about me learning cello over on Fugue State, and my mum and I are starting a food blog called Aubergine & Eggplant. Leave a comment if you'd like to be updated when A&E launches.
So - a personal blog isn't really my thing anymore. Read about me learning cello over on Fugue State, and my mum and I are starting a food blog called Aubergine & Eggplant. Leave a comment if you'd like to be updated when A&E launches.
Oh, it's almost warm. So close. Some people are already shedding their tights but I'm not quite ready for that.
I counted the days wrong in my diary and I thought today would be the release from hormone-induced clumsiness, but it's not until Saturday. Which is not good timing because I'm wrestling with some intense deadlines at work and stressed out partners at home.
And I can not be getting all teary and upset when trying to input Greek and English texts for confusing contemporary classical music programmes. I just can't.
I never know what to do. When you're thinking about having a baby, but you're whole extended family seems annoyed and irritated with you for moving to another continent, even though things in the old country were stalled with no future in sight, and things here are good and open and full of future. What to do. Their needs are not your needs, but it feels churlish to ignore them.
But what do you say? I know you're feeling panicked and abandoned, but we're staying here anyway?
The pressure is mounting, and it feels like every holiday ever in the foreseeable future is being claimed by various arms of the family. I haven't spent a weekend alone with Christopher away from our flat in probably two years.
I think this would all be easier if they were horrible, selfish people, instead of loving and generous. It makes it all much worse.
And, secret confession: I've had my first viable idea for a novel. It makes sense and I like it, and even if no one reads it but Christopher, my mum and myself, I'll be fine. It involves some research. Very excited.
I stood next to a puddle while the wind blew waves across it, but the sun was warm enough to make me look up at it squinting. It's properly, almost, spring.
Philip Pullman: The Subtle Knife: Adult Edition (His Dark Materials)
Alex Ross: The Rest Is Noise: Listening to the Twentieth Century